One more try: Good By no replies will be read nor responded to:
Usenet is not reality some think it is others know the truth of the
mater (I choose to use mater instead of the more correct matter; just
because I like taking artistic license iow Usenet is a mother of creation in
virtual reality and no one has *ever* gotten my point on that *one* not to
even mention all the other hidden meanings of other words which everyone
calls a worm wiggle) I use this forum as a sort of therapeutic pain
management tool. I have expressed this numerous times before; but no one
wishes to believe this for what ever reason. While I am typing (yes as
great speed and accuracy; but I admit I am a poor speller; but I *DO* have
and use a spelling checker from my Office 2003 Pro) I can for limited times
put my physical pain out of my conscience mind and relegate it to the nether
regions of my subconscious.
I only ever leave a group for one of three reasons. One if my family
(that doesn't read nor post to Usenet) is attacked verbally or with
illegally obtained pictures. Two if I become bored with a group. Three and
most importantly if the denizens of a group are particularly asinine and
they start to pull me down to their level. On point three, I don't mind
their being asinine or haranguing me or calling me all sorts of names; but I
abhor my family being brought into the fray. Sometimes however I do find
myself being pulled down into the cesspool of depravity and asinine which I
will NOT allow and if I find that to be occurring I will remove myself from
said group.
Shane:
You need to get a grip and realize that if you play around in these news
groups you ARE going to sooner or later get bit by someone that doesn't care
what they say or how they say it. You put me in mind of a young child that
when their parents put presents or something in a closet and then tells the
child that there are monsters in the closet to keep them from looking,
believes in the monsters so strongly that if the parent opens the door and
pulls out a present you would not open the present for fear of something
jumping out and grabbing you. Well either that or you are just trying to
put me on about your believing in my having some sort of powers. Never fear
I have no powers at all that any other human being doesn't also have. In
real life I am a regular sort of person other then my being physically
disabled almost to the point of needing a wheel chair; but even though my
doctors say I should be in one will continue to walk as long as I can until
I start falling down too much from my legs going out from under me. I don't
tell you or others in this group this to garner any sort of sympathy or as
any type of excuse for my behavior; but rather as a point of fact.
You try and use your affiliation or knowing Hells Angels like a weapon;
but in fact if they knew you were doing so, they would take a very dim view
of it. I tried to tell you before, I have nothing but respect for almost
all Motorcycle clubs, and of yet I personally have not come across one that
did not garner my respect. We have a bikers rodeo here every year, and when
our local authorities tried to stop the rodeo; because they did not think it
looked good for tourism, I and several others and a lot of bikers took up
petitions to prevent the town council from stopping all local biker rodeos.
Whether or not you choose to believe it I do volunteer and help out the two
local biker clubs as much as my disabilities allow. I use to ride myself
back when I first got out of the military and was, well sort of wild and
wooly and did some things I am not proud of; but I did and I have to live
with that. Like you I also quit smoking, I did it cold turkey after smoking
for over 26 years and I have not smoked now since September 11th of 2000. I
use to be on one of the most physically addicting pain medications out there
called oxycotin or as some say *hillbilly heroin*. I was on 60Mg 4 times a
day with 2 percoetts in between for breakout pain. When I told the Veterans
Administration that I wanted off of them and to take something else they
told me that I had been on most all of the pain medications that they had.
I had to go through the patient advocate to get my doctors to listen to me
and then was hospitalized and went into a coma when I tried to do it cold
turkey because I refused to take any pain medication. After which I
relented and allowed them to prescribe methadone and before you get any wise
ars ideas NO I have never used heroin, methadone is also used for the long
term treatment of chronic severe pain. I take 40Mg of methadone 4 times a
day and if you know anyone that has anything to do with the treatment of
chronic pain they will tell you that 40mg 4 times a day is a hefty dose
usually reserved for those with terminal cancer. You and others seam to
think I am faking my physical disabilities, well if you knew anything about
the Social Security Administration here in the USA you would know that that
is as close to being imposable as can be; because they usually require you
to have one foot on a banana peel and the other in the grave before they
grant you a disability check. It took me three years of test and MRI's and
CAT scans and X-Rays and trying to get rehabilitation therapy and such to do
some sort of work; but my disability is one of those that the physical pain
can actually knock me out when it gets to a certain point I start getting
stomach cramps, and then start seeing sort of little fire flies out on the
periphery of my vision and then the next step is that I fall out
unconscious.
I don't tell you about my pain and such to get any type of sympathy;
because the truth be known that is the absolute LAST thing I want or need.
My family try and do everything for me and would just have me sit in front
of my pc all day and night; but I can't even do that; because I can only set
for a limited amount of time and then have to move.
And finally to you Shane, I know you are reading this; because I know human
nature.
Heather:
Well about all I can say about you is you deserve to be in a group where
everyone is EXACTLY like YOU, that can nit pick and pull apart each others
posts, instead of just understanding that some people don't like to take the
time to try and be perfect in there writing. I am a published poet,
although it is true it has been some time since I was published; because I
am the sort that I submitted one poem one time just to prove to *myself*
that I was good enough to be published and after that it didn't and doesn't
matter (see I can use the correct one when *I choose*)to me whether or not I
get any more published. To me writing poetry or music or even prose (I
should really submit some of my stories though) is a personal thing that I
do for my *own* enjoyment and I have neither the desire nor inclination to
share it with the world in general or anyone in particular through
publishing it for general consumption, although I do have a limited number
of my poems online just because well I really truly don't know why I put
them up. Oh and the typing medal in High School, my family moved around a
lot and when we moved that year it was close to the end of the year, and
when the class took the test I beat the next best typist by 20Wpm; but the
teacher told me that the girl that was next fastest and accurate had planed
to win and all her friends and such so I agreed to let her have it; because
even back then medals and such for accomplishment or what ever didn't matter
to me, to me it was enough to know I was the best in the class. Just
remember in a typing test you have NO NEED to spell correctly because all
you are doing is *looking* at the correct spelling and grammar and
punctuation and then typing what you see. It is not a test of
spelling,grammar or punctuation; but rather a test of manual dexterity and I
guess because I learned to play lead,rhythm and bass guitar in my early
teens it helped with my dexterity. I was however the ONLY guy in the typing
class. I have related the events of my almost winning the typing medal in
high school before on Usenet and if you like you can check and see it hasn't
varied; because I learned a long time ago that aside from it being the
morally right thing to do, unless you have a photographic memory (which I
don't) you need to always tell the truth; because if you tell the truth you
have no need to remember what you said; because the truth is always always
always.
the same.
To the rest of the Group:
I have tried to create a character on Usenet and I have succeeded to a
degree. How many others can say that for what ever reason someone creates
web pages about them? Whether those pages be making fun of the person or
what ever. To instill a feeling in someone strong enough that they feel
compelled to create a web page takes a certain gena say quah (French
spelling ?) To get someone to write a pros story about them takes some
doing. Long after I am gone on to the other side people will be reading
about my adventures on Usenet who here can say the same? No one, now some
will say that they would not want to be remembered as such; but to be
remembered in what ever fashion is better then falling into obscurity. Even
though it matters little to of such thing, I found it an interesting
challenge to see if it could be accomplished. I have progressed the theorem
to the point that I came to this news group and those that had never seen a
single post from me, took the *word* of those that had and joined in the
games of attacking me. Which only went to prove to me the success of what I
had set out to do. Well originally I started out on IRC to do like wise
with the Moof Monsters thing; but this worked out better.
Regardless of what those on some groups think I am a very competent
computer repair person and also quite good with software and virus removal.
I am directly responsible for at least one computer shop here locally being
opened; because I trained the owner. He had attended a pre A+ certification
class at the local University branch; but after successfully completing it,
he told me that had I not trained him that class would not have prepared him
to open his store. He and other local techs still call *me* when they have
a problem. Some will say *well then get off your ars and go back to work*
which I would gladly do, if I could find some work either from home, or that
would allow me to take my pain meds and when the need arise to go and
seclude myself in a dark, cold room to lay down with a heating or ice pack
until the pain subsided enough to return. The only degree I have is a TV
Repairman Certificate I received while in the military from the Sears
Institute of Technology. My military records however show my job title as
Electronics 26T; because I repaired main frame computers as well as avionic
bays and other electronic test equipment. IOW, I tested and repaired the
equipment used to maintain electronics. I did not work on TV's I worked on
VTM's Ohm meters, oscilloscopes, signal injectors and other various and
proprietary equipment for the military. For a short time just prior to my
coming home from Vietnam I *was* reassigned up country to Pleiku as a
Morning Report Clerk; because I could type very well and accurately. You
see a morning report can contain exactly ZERO mistakes. The morning report
sends the information up the chain of command as to whom reported for duty,
who died, who was reassigned for TDY (Temporary duty) and such, maybe you
can see why they tolerated ZERO errors. On one occasion when taking
distribution to battalion I wound the jeep out too tight on the gravel road
along side the ammo bunkers and I rolled the jeep and was knocked out for 3
days, and was at hospital for 2 weeks; but as I have said before when
offered to return to the states on what was called a blue pajama flight I
knew because of being a morning report clerk that would entail someone else
coming to Vietnam 3 months early because of my having 3 months left on my
tour. I opted to just tuff it out and returned to my unit in a neck and
back brace with pain meds. I guess that is why I have had and am having
such a hard time getting service connected disability; because of my not
taking the earl hospital flight the records got snafued and it has taken me
until last year to track down my old operations safety officer which at the
time was still working for the military as a civilian over in Bosnia as a
Flight Safety Officer. He sent me a notarize statement; but now the
Veterans Administration says that my injuries are "Acute in nature,
transitory with no residual effects", IOW it knocked the piss out of me then
but now they say it has no lasing effects. Even though my doctors say that
the likelihood of the bone spurs in my neck that are trying to pierce my
spinal bundle, occurred 25-30 years ago the VA says the jeep accident has no
bearing on my physical disabilities. The offered me a non-service connected
disability that would pay almost two times as much as what I am receiving
from Social Security, if I accept it that would curtail any future attempts
at service connection and service connection would pay almost three times
what non-service connection does and it would also pay for University for my
children.
In any event, as I said in the subject line, I will NOT read any
replies regardless of what I said previously; because I will be turning off
my bots that scour Usenet looking for mention of my Sugien nic; because as a
therapeutic pain management tool Usenet is turning out to be counter
productive as well as counter intuitive. I have decided to put more energy
into my music and poems and prose as well as my volunteer work with the
church, motorcycle clubs, food banks, after school latch key kids safety,
crisis center phone sitting, well it is too long a list to put down and it
is doubtful any here will believe it; because I guess I have done so good a
job of creating the Sugien persona, that when I try and tell what the real
life me *is* doing no one cares or believes. It doesn't bother me however;
because my life does not and never has revolved around those on Usenet. I
have tried to be a help; but on the groups that know Sugien I was blocked at
every turn and although people emailed me to say thank you because they did
not want groups to harangue them for well I guess for their taking advice
from me that helped them.
So good by, so long, no need to reply, unless you just want those here other
then me to read it; because I am unscrewing (yes I know) from this NG and
putting more time in more rewarding ventures. Oh if you like Gospel Music
check out me beta records site at http://www.betarecords.com/paul.bryant or
my poetry at http://www.dino-soft.org/poems.html
or my programs (created from *free* source code)
http://www.dino-soft.org/programs/index.html
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From the desk of Paul Bryant
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